So, I picked dad up this overcast, spring morning to visit the urologist. Fortunately, this was just an in/out thing and then we were on our way. He seemed stronger today compared to last week, which was very encouraging. Last week it seemed that he was regressing when he’d come so far since his hospitalization last month. I was glad to see him rebounding today, despite depending on the walker for stability. He was definitely stronger getting in and out of the car. What a blessing to see!
My son came along and, as always, was a great help unfolding the walker for his grandpa and opening doors, etc. We all enjoyed a nice breakfast at Bob Evans and had a fantastic waitress. Afterwards, my son helped pump gas on the way to take my dad home. It’s so nice that he’s old enough to help out with that now. I wore the elbow ace bandage today as a support for my sprained elbow that is still recovering. (Soaking in the epsom salt has made all the difference in the world, thankfully!)
We set the trash out for my dad just in time before the trash truck rounded the corner this morning. So, he appreciated getting that taken care of. I know he’ll be glad when he is back to his normal self.
On the way back to his house, I decided to play the David Phelps’ album on my iPod again. (It seems to be a favorite at the moment!) I knew my dad would appreciate hearing How Great Thou Art as it is his all-time favorite hymn. (He has selected this hymn to be sung at his funeral.) Traffic was fairly heavy, but my spirits were lightened when I heard dad sing along to this hymn! My dad doesn’t usually sing, folks. He’s a pretty serious fella when he’s not cracking a joke. Does that make any sense? Haha! … Ah, dad has been through so much over the past six weeks beginning with fracturing his right foot followed by contracting a serious case of sepsis the next day! When he was in the hospital, even basic functions were nearly impossible. His recovery over the last few weeks has been miraculous, and to hear him singing praises to our heavenly Father today… well, it melted my heart! It surely made God smile.
Here, his body is weak and his mind gets confused at times, but his spirit remains connected to his Lord and Savior! What a testimony of God’s grace!
The album continued playing and after dad got out of the SUV at his house, he said how much he enjoyed listening to the music. I was glad to hear that. Normally I don’t play the radio or listen to my iPod when he’s in the car because he’s usually talking so much. He must’ve been a little tired today as he didn’t talk much on the way home.
Today was the last batch of doctor appointments for several weeks, thankfully! We’ve seen so many specialists over the last month and we both can stand a reprieve.
So very thankful for the mercy and grace God extends to my dad and to me also as I strive to be God’s hands extended. Most days I rely heavily on God’s strength and He never fails me. I always consider the fact that one day I, too, will need assistance with things and can only hope and pray that my children will be patient and loving with me as well. I learned very early on just how fragile life really is. I was a mere 23 when I watched my mother’s life ebb away as her body was wracked with cancer. So, I’ve lived my entire adult life with the understanding that we are not as invincible as we tend to believe when we’re young. Tomorrow is not promised. We must make today count! Witnessing my dad’s recent health struggles and near death experience with sepsis has prompted me to prepare myself for his eventual passing, but I don’t know that one can ever be truly prepared to lose a parent, no matter the age. We never willingly let go. Death is so foreign, so intangible. It separates us from the ones we love.
I know that when the day arrives that he crosses into Glory, it will be the best day of his life. No more pain, no more struggles. Heaven will be far more perfect and full of pure bliss than we could ever consider or imagine with our finite minds! Until then … I am doing my best to honor and respect my dad and help him navigate his golden years with grace and dignity.
Today, my reward was when dad sang…