…is all it takes sometimes. We’ve had a rough few days around here with all our aches and pains. What am I saying? We’ve had a painful two weeks. But it has reached the point where we’re tired of it! Frustrated that we’re still in pain, tired of taking pain meds, Epsom baths, applying Biofreeze gel … and don’t get me started about the seemingly endless Dr. and physical therapy appointments!! … And, then she walked past us on her way out of the physical therapy office today…
She had some sort of brace around her rib cage and a cast on her arm as she spoke in a raspy voice. Clearly she was in a worse accident than we were and her pain has got to be more severe. I knew from the beginning of our ordeal how blessed we were not to have sustained far greater injuries and we are infinitely grateful to God for that! But, today was an especially painful day for me where it hurts to sit. It doesn’t feel a whole lot better standing. And I didn’t sleep well and I have a lot of issues on my mind at the moment… And, and, and… Blah, blah, blah, blah… Well, you get the idea. Not a stellar day for me.
But, when I saw this poor woman today, I couldn’t help but thank God once more for His grace and mercy over our lives! Yes, we are all in pain from the accident still, but the good news is that we will recover in time. Pain does crazy things to you. Not only does it make one grumpy, but it also blurs the reality that the pain will pass in time.
I was sharing my accident story with the dermatologist this morning at my follow up appointment and she concurred how fortunate we all are that it was no worse. That fact alone fills my heart with immense gratitute. From the outside, we all appear to be just fine, but on the inside, not only are we still in a great deal of pain, we are also still processing the trauma of the accident. That takes time too. Since this was the first real accident I’ve ever been in, I never realized the anxiety that can follow a major accident. I’ve gotten better each time I’ve driven or been a passenger since the accident, but I’m definitely uber cautious and aware that anything can happen.
My husband went to the orthopedic Dr. this morning and will begin his physical therapy routine this week. He mentioned how much time all of these appointments are consuming and the fact that we have to get back to living our normal lives! I couldn’t agree more. I got to thinking how the actions of one person affected ten other people that night! Because one man decided to consume entirely too much alcohol and get behind the wheel, he and his passenger were flown by helicopter to a shock and trauma unit. The remaining nine of us were taken by ambulance to a nearby hospital. He even still had alcohol in his vehicle, which I’m sure is one reason he attempted to flee the scene of the accident. He received five citations.
This week alone I will have had six medical appointments, two on Mon. and Wed. and will have two more on Fri. There have been no quiet moments since the accident. The phrase, “No rest for the weary” comes to mind. We just want normal life to resume. Now. Isn’t that our way? We want everything instantly. Apparently part of the reason for much of my pain is inflammation. The Dr. advised to limit wheat and take fish oil (which I already do) to help. I also came home and researched this a little and found out green tea, spices, almonds and many fruits can also help.
And, so my pep talk to myself today is that I will continue to take this healing journey one day at a time. I will resist the urge to complain (too much anyway!). I will count my blessings every day! I will look to the hills from whence comes my help. My help comes from the Lord! I will do my part to help the healing process and trust God to do the rest. And I will continually seek out the good that will come from this accident. I know there’s more good that hasn’t been revealed just yet. I don’t believe God wastes pain, so I believe there’s a purpose even in this. And I will yet praise Him!
Just Me Being Real